Hold This One

I got headache about 3 days and its until now
I don't know why i got headache

One of my best bitch told me something 2 days ago
It makes me a little bit shocked
What i'm doing right now, is it true or wrong?
She texted me about something that i'm thinking for a long time
You know, maybe someone else will told you about this
But maybe you may not change just because what they said about you
And if your bestie told you about it, maybe you may change little by little
You may hear your best friend

I realized it from long time but i haven't ready to leave it
My heart still want him even if me and him just a friend
I don't know what i am doing right now is true or not
But i just want to know how about his day, he is happy or sad, or just making joke
To do it until this step, it needs a bravery
What i am doing right now just want to make him happy because of me
He knows my feeling about him and i know his feelings about me
I just want to hold this one

I am glad to have him as my friend, boy friend, close friend, best friend.
You know? Sometimes, i just thinking about how if only me that try to hold this feeling
It is growing up everyday
I am happy just because his smile, his joking, his laugh and all about him

Please, for this one, let me hold this one and i hope him too.